A couple weeks ago I spent a night away from home (ekbo was there so I have a witness). A few ladies got together and went to the peninsula for a Twilight tour, which probably wouldn’t have been my first choice for a pleasure weekend since I grew up on the peninsula (and hello? no spa?) but the fact that others were organizing made it a great excuse to get away. We went down to Forks and LaPush, ate dinner at Bella Italia and tootled around PA on Sunday morning. It was fun to let ourselves be taken in just a little bit by the cheesiness of it all but still have our moments of self mockery for the object of our trip.
More momentously, it was my first night or significant amount of time spent away from my son. A lot of people I know have already given this a whirl by the time their child is almost two but I also know a lot of people who haven’t. It was definitely surreal in so many ways. I had a great time not adhering to a strict eating, sleeping, setting aside time to play schedule. I enjoyed having uninterrupted conversations with people that are interesting and cool. I really savored eating dinner at my own pace. When you spend most of your waking hours with someone else though it’s pretty noticeable when he’s not there. The first thing I thought of when we were on the ferry was how much he would have enjoyed seeing the boats…when we got to our rooms at the bed and breakfast there were these little cubby areas that he’d have loved playing in…my first inclination when seeing a huge bald eagle flying from a tree was to turn to him and point it out. I didn’t sleep well at all but I’m sure that had more to do with Slanky not being there than Jonah (and shouldn’t it be some sort of crime to not sleep well then you actually have the chance to truly sleep in? it doesn’t make any sense!). And I think they did just fine without me. In fact I couldn’t even tell whether Jonah was more happy to see me or my mom, who was also gone all weekend. So it goes.
If given the chance, I’d do another night away, though in a few months it would be a lot more complicated by the whole breastfeeding thing and the guilt of leaving someone else at home with TWO kids. Maybe at a certain point my urge to get away would far outweigh any sense of guilt or responsibility or fear of missing them that I might have once had! That remains to be seen.

La Push. Where the vampires don't go.







